My sweet friend Amy so eloquently pointed out to me today that I have not been blogging. She is of course right but with raising 4 kids alone, teaching full time, working on my doctorate and managing a relationship along with friends, time is definitely not on my side. I sometimes wish for more hours in a day but that thought makes me tired just thinking it. So I am going to update you all on what's going on.
First, the relationship, wish I could intrigue you with drama but there is none to report. The relationship is wonderful in a scared as hell kind of way. I am happier than I have ever been in many respects and petrified at the same time. I am feelings things I have never felt before and again petrified at the same time. Still working with Ola, therapist extraordinaire, but I am no longer on the weekly plan. I have graduated to twice monthly. Jeff, is the most wonderful man. He is kind, loving, gentle, funny, and a really good person. He makes me want to be a better person. Sometimes I think that I have found the person I never want to live without and that fact only introduces more terror. He has two beautiful little girls that I have am honored to be a part of their lives and he genuinely likes my kids. Noah, sweet little Noah, who is quite reserved and shy, asked Jeff if he would stay the night last night and sleep in Jackson's bed. Noah and Jackson share a room. It was so sweet. And Abby adores him. She begs to be tickled and Jeff won't quit until she tells him he's the best. She says it but is right back to be tickled again.
I can say that the time that we have to spend a part is hard. With both of us having the responsibility of raising our kids on our own, time for us is in short supply. Adding to that the part time job he has with Falcons, my job which never ends at 4 and my school and our time is in even shorter supply. For now, I can honestly say that I am 100% in love with him and it feels good. I must send a special thank you to Words with Friends for hooking us up and Shanda Roberts for pushing it along.
On the other fronts, I miss my brother from another immensely and wish he were closer. My Dad would have turned 65 this Saturday, if had lived. I am not sure how I feel about the impending date. I am thinking that it might be the right time to take a trip to the cemetery. I have not been since we buried him in December of last year. I miss him every single day. Every time I think of him, I am reminded of the fact that Granny Ann will be 80 in January. She won't be here forever and I cannot even fathom life without her.
So enough of the morbid thoughts, I am making new friends and I have discovered that I really do have a lot of friends and to you guys I want to say thank you. I know that I am not always available and don't say or do the right things but I do love you guys each in a different way. I do have to give one special shout out to a friend who will remain nameless for now. I am so proud of you. From the bottom of my heart proud and truly and deeply honored to call you friend and to have you in my life. And to Julie.....congratulations. It is easy to see why you love Chester.
