March 30, 2011
So as I titled this blog my thought was that it had been a long time since I had posted anything but as I typed the title something else came to mind. I have been working very hard lately on overcoming my co-dependency with a new therapist, Ola. I really like her because she is very direct and while she is empathetic to what I am feeling she is not afraid to challenge me and recognizes that I do not do sympathy well. Anyway, this week we talked a lot about how I function cerebrally and not so well emotionally and she was pleased to see that my softer side was coming out. That I was beginning to operate more maturely in the emotional realm hence the title better late than never. While I wish that I had matured emotionally long ago, it is better to be a late bloomer than to never bloom at all.
I am pretty sure that I have completely lost my mind today.....I registered for three of the six classes that I need to complete before I can begin writing my dissertation and earn a doctorate in teaching and learning. I know it is crazy, what with being a single mother of 4 kids but if I want to get paid for it by the state of Ga. then it is now or never. For some reason the phrase "I think I can, I think I can" comes to mind.
While I am on the subject of me, I must toot my own horn just a little bit. Recently, I took the GRE and did well on it though my score was 10 points under what GSU wanted on the Verbal section but 1.5 points over on a 6 point scale on the writing portion and 20 over in Math, Yeh, go figure, who would have ever thought that Math was a strength for me. Certainly no one who knows me very well. So, I mistakenly thought that GSU would grant me an interview. They did not. They did however, grant an interview to at least one other candidate who did not score as well as I did on the GRE. My old self would have been devastated and felt stupid and unworthy. My new self, thought, the Universe is trying to teach me a lesson here. Hmm....could that lesson be that acceptance into this program does not in any way define my intelligence? Then my new self thought, hmm....would it not make a lot more sense to complete my degree at Liberty in half of the time and at half of the cost of beginning again at GSU? Why, yes, new self that makes a lot more sense. Now, many of you will not be impressed with the realization that the new self had but those who know me well will know what a gigantic step in the mature emotionally direction that one was.
Final thoughts: Meditation is not as ridiculous as I once thought, Yoga is worth the time and effort, and there are only two more school days until Spring Break begins. Oh, and just in case you are reading this hoping for something profound....wait for it......here it comes.....nope, not gonna happen tonight. I have nothing profound to offer. You will have to check back later and see if I can come up with something profound to share.
Wednesday, March 30, 2011
Friday, March 25, 2011
TGIF
Friday is finally here....this week has been a long one. Stomach virus for Mom, which at 40 feels like you are knocking at death's door. I spent Wednesday night on my yoga mat in my bathroom floor. It was not pretty. But thanks to my son who is learning to drive, he drove me to the store and went in for Gatorade, soda cracker, bananas, apple sauce and Ginger Ale. He is so sweet. The little ones were worried about Mommy but smart enough not to offer for than air kisses. I raised them well.
Soccer practice tonight for Chloe was fun. She is coming along so nicely. She really listens to the coach and tries to do what he tells her but she is a little like her mother....clumsy but she is aggressive and not afraid so with some practice she is gonna kick butt.
Noah is spending the night with his Mimi. He loves Granny Ann so much.
We are piled in my bed watching a Zack and Cody movie.
Tomorrow we are going to get ready for Jackson's installation at the Demolay lodge in PTC. He is so excited and I am so proud of him. I will have pictures to post tomorrow night. His speech is amazing. I cannot wait to hear him give it. I just wish my Dad was here to see this. He would have really enjoyed it. Maybe Shawn can come in his place.
Soccer practice tonight for Chloe was fun. She is coming along so nicely. She really listens to the coach and tries to do what he tells her but she is a little like her mother....clumsy but she is aggressive and not afraid so with some practice she is gonna kick butt.
Noah is spending the night with his Mimi. He loves Granny Ann so much.
We are piled in my bed watching a Zack and Cody movie.
Tomorrow we are going to get ready for Jackson's installation at the Demolay lodge in PTC. He is so excited and I am so proud of him. I will have pictures to post tomorrow night. His speech is amazing. I cannot wait to hear him give it. I just wish my Dad was here to see this. He would have really enjoyed it. Maybe Shawn can come in his place.
Wednesday, March 23, 2011
Hump Day
Ah, it is Wednesday and we are heading downhill into the weekend. This morning I had a momentary loss of brainwaves and forgot to give Noah his medicine. Yes, I shout out to his teacher. I am so sorry. So needless to say getting home this afternoon and entering to hear his lovely voice at 110+ decibels as he ran through kitchen to the dining room and through living room to come back through the kitchen again was a nice surprise. He is the sweetest thing but without his medicine he is like a mexican jumping bean with the volume all the way turnded up. Poor little Chloe has only recently learned to ride her bike without the training wheels and fell last Tuesday and had a major case of road rash on her elbow. It is healing nicely and scabbed over. Tonight, she is riding along and somehow she falls and now has an even nicer case of road rash on her knee and the top of her foot. Let me just say that while she is absolutely adorable and smart as a whip she definitely has a flair for the dramatics. She is limping and crying and went to be with her leg propped up on two pillows. And I cannot leave out little Abby.....she shared with me today that Grandma Susie helped the kids in her class throw a surprise party for her teachers Ms. Pam and Ms. Paige. I asked Abby what the party was for and she replied,"I don't know, I just jumped up and yelled surprise." It makes me wonder if the intent was really to throw a party or if Abby just wanted to say surprise. I have only briefly laid eyes on Jackson today since he has indoor drumline practice after school on Tuesday and Wednesday until 8. Tomorrow will be our night though as the little guys will go to see their Dad. Last time we shopped for orange things and ate mexican. Not sure what we will do. I may take him to a Yoga class. I know he will love that!
Monday, March 21, 2011
Dancing with the Stars
March 21, 2011
Today, was a Monday, although there is a lot for this family to be thankful for. OK, well maybe just for me to be happy about. I have always said "what goes around comes around" and sometimes you are there to see it, well, today i got to see it in the form of a tax bill to my ex for $2500. Yes, that is right $2500. Now, so you don't get the wrong idea.....let me say that throughout these divorce proceedings, which by the way, I did not ask for, I have been fair and polite. I have had no desire to destroy the ex financially or otherwise. So, it is nice to see a little bit of justice served and to know that I had not part of it so that I can sleep well at night.
Now, that being said, let me also say that I am so thankful that Dancing with the Stars is back on. There has been so little decent TV on of late. I am so excited to have this show back on. I just wish that I could move that way.
I took the girls shopping for spring clothes tonight and I am now about $300 poorer but we got lots of cute stuff. I cannot wait to see my little fashion divas dressed tomorrow. I just hope that Miss Sassy a.k.a Abby will wear the clothes that she picked out. She has a habit of having to have certain things and then gets tired of it and won't wear it. Like skinny jeans, Granny Ann bought her tons of pairs of skinny jeans and now she has decided she wants regular jeans. Well, guess what? You don't have any.
Jackson and put together the coolest shoe cabinet last night and today. I hope this will mean that the kids will actually put their shoes in the cabinet. Noah is off to a good start. I am hoping that this is not just a new thing phase. We shall see.
We only have 9 school days left until Spring Break. The kids and I are going to Wilderness in the Smokies for three days. It is an indoor water park. It should be ton of fun. My dear friend Julie is coming along with her two boys so needless to say my kids are ecstatic. Noah because her Jackson is one of his best buddies and Abby because Warren is one of her boyfriends and in her class. Yes, my 5 year old has two boyfriends and I the grown up have none. Don't even have a good prospect at this point. Maybe Abby needs to give me some dating pointers. Warren and Kurt, the other boyfriend, just love Abby to death. Kurt brought her a rode for Valentines Day and said "Abby, will you accept this rose?" Yeh, that is exactly what I thought too.
So for tonight, I am signing off to go and watch my dancing show.
Today, was a Monday, although there is a lot for this family to be thankful for. OK, well maybe just for me to be happy about. I have always said "what goes around comes around" and sometimes you are there to see it, well, today i got to see it in the form of a tax bill to my ex for $2500. Yes, that is right $2500. Now, so you don't get the wrong idea.....let me say that throughout these divorce proceedings, which by the way, I did not ask for, I have been fair and polite. I have had no desire to destroy the ex financially or otherwise. So, it is nice to see a little bit of justice served and to know that I had not part of it so that I can sleep well at night.
Now, that being said, let me also say that I am so thankful that Dancing with the Stars is back on. There has been so little decent TV on of late. I am so excited to have this show back on. I just wish that I could move that way.
I took the girls shopping for spring clothes tonight and I am now about $300 poorer but we got lots of cute stuff. I cannot wait to see my little fashion divas dressed tomorrow. I just hope that Miss Sassy a.k.a Abby will wear the clothes that she picked out. She has a habit of having to have certain things and then gets tired of it and won't wear it. Like skinny jeans, Granny Ann bought her tons of pairs of skinny jeans and now she has decided she wants regular jeans. Well, guess what? You don't have any.
Jackson and put together the coolest shoe cabinet last night and today. I hope this will mean that the kids will actually put their shoes in the cabinet. Noah is off to a good start. I am hoping that this is not just a new thing phase. We shall see.
We only have 9 school days left until Spring Break. The kids and I are going to Wilderness in the Smokies for three days. It is an indoor water park. It should be ton of fun. My dear friend Julie is coming along with her two boys so needless to say my kids are ecstatic. Noah because her Jackson is one of his best buddies and Abby because Warren is one of her boyfriends and in her class. Yes, my 5 year old has two boyfriends and I the grown up have none. Don't even have a good prospect at this point. Maybe Abby needs to give me some dating pointers. Warren and Kurt, the other boyfriend, just love Abby to death. Kurt brought her a rode for Valentines Day and said "Abby, will you accept this rose?" Yeh, that is exactly what I thought too.
So for tonight, I am signing off to go and watch my dancing show.
Sunday, March 20, 2011
A New Beginning
March 20, 2011
I am beginning a new life in a lot of respects so I thought that starting a blog would be a great idea. As a single of Mom of 4 wonderful children.....I needed something else to do because I am not busy enough. Let me introduce you to my children.
Jackson, 15, smart as can be but no common sense. He is a caring and compassionate young man and incidently will be installed as the Master Counselor of the PTC DeMolay. In case you are not aware of what that is, it is the man in charge. He is so proud and has worked so hard to achieve this goal.
Noah, 8 is the sweetest little boy you will ever know. He has the biggest blue eyes and he loves to give hugs and kisses. He is fascinated with all things Science and of course video games are a favorite as well.
Chloe, 7, is the thinker in the family. Her brain is always working. She is playing soccer for the first time and she runs up and down that field with the biggest smile on her face. She is the cutest thing. She is very intelligent as well.
Then there is the baby, Abby,5. She is all attitude. She loves her Mommy and carries these old pajama pants of mine with her everywhere. She calls it Me Mommy. She is very bright but quiet outside the house. She takes it all in though.
And, there is me. Renea, 40 and single again. Terrible at relationships but working on it. Recently, I have developed an insane interest in Bubbhism and meditation. My life right now is all about change and purging of bad energy. So, stay tuned for all sorts of interesting posts. You never know what you will read.
I am beginning a new life in a lot of respects so I thought that starting a blog would be a great idea. As a single of Mom of 4 wonderful children.....I needed something else to do because I am not busy enough. Let me introduce you to my children.
Jackson, 15, smart as can be but no common sense. He is a caring and compassionate young man and incidently will be installed as the Master Counselor of the PTC DeMolay. In case you are not aware of what that is, it is the man in charge. He is so proud and has worked so hard to achieve this goal.
Noah, 8 is the sweetest little boy you will ever know. He has the biggest blue eyes and he loves to give hugs and kisses. He is fascinated with all things Science and of course video games are a favorite as well.
Chloe, 7, is the thinker in the family. Her brain is always working. She is playing soccer for the first time and she runs up and down that field with the biggest smile on her face. She is the cutest thing. She is very intelligent as well.
Then there is the baby, Abby,5. She is all attitude. She loves her Mommy and carries these old pajama pants of mine with her everywhere. She calls it Me Mommy. She is very bright but quiet outside the house. She takes it all in though.
And, there is me. Renea, 40 and single again. Terrible at relationships but working on it. Recently, I have developed an insane interest in Bubbhism and meditation. My life right now is all about change and purging of bad energy. So, stay tuned for all sorts of interesting posts. You never know what you will read.
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