Love is in the Air

It is late and I realized that I have not updated my blog in quite sometime, that is one of the perils of having summers off....you get lazy.  So much has happened to me this summer.  I began the summer with foot surgery and that was most unpleasant but a spur of the moment trip out West to see my brother Jeff did the trick to lift my spirits.  It was an amazing trip full of peaceful sites to visit and quality time spent with my west coast family. 
While on this trip I discovered an addictive game called Words with Friends. From this simple game on my phone, I reconnected with an amazing man.  Playing the game led to chatting on Facebook which led to texting which led to more texting, day and night and that led to phone calls, and finally after many weeks we actually saw one another and it has now progressed into a relationship.  I suck at good relationships so this one is both frightening and wonderful at the same time.  I personally am working very hard with Ola, therapist extraordinairre to overcome my relationship issues so I am hopeful.  
Let me tell you a little about Jeff.  Not my brother Jeff, who by the way is amazing in his own right but my love interest Jeff.  He is absolutely the most generous, tender, affectionate, and loving man I have ever had the pleasure of being involved with. He tells me everyday how beautiful I am and how special I am.  He has two lovely daughters that he takes care of full time and does a great job with them.  He is absolutely adorable.  My biggest fear is that I will somehow screw this up.  I pray everyday that I won't.  He is fabulous with my kids too and when I told him I had 4 he did not run screaming from the room.  When I shared with him my fears, he was supportive and understanding.  I cannot fathom what I have done to deserve this in my life but I am so grateful to have it.
So as I prepare to begin this new school year and face all of the chaos and anxiety that will present initially, I do it with a smile on my face and happiness in my heart.
Those who have read the blog have undoubtedly picked up on the struggles and pain that have colored my world this last year.  Losing my Dad, the failure of a marriage and the ugliness that came my way as a result, the loss of a dear friendship combined with the other losses felt like it would kill me sometimes the hurt was so much.  Well, I saw the light and the end of the tunnel and I kept trudging through and now I know what it feels like to come out on the other side.  It feels good.  I still miss my Daddy everyday but I know he is in a better place and he is finally happy and at peace.  I still have to deal with the ex and he is still mean, hurtful and disrespectful but I do it now with a new purpose and a shield that protects me from the darts he shoots my way.  The lost friendship is on the mend and I am so very grateful for that.  And then there is Jeff, I don't know what if anything the future holds in this relationship but for right now I am going to bask in the wonder of it and enjoy every second.