Before I share with you the meaning of today's title let me say a few words of thanks. First of all, I started this blog as a way to share funny stories about my kids but it quickly turned into something more. For me it has been therapeutic for lack of a better description. I don't know who reads it but knowing that someone does adds a level of accountability in my life that I need. I have heard from a few this past week with only positive comments about the blog and I thank you. I heard from one neither positive nor negative just that it was explored. But there was one, an old friend from back in the day that was particularly touching. This friend shared that it was nice to know that she was not alone in the single Mom world. Now that sounds obvious that she is not alone. You only have to turn on 16 and pregnant to know there are lots of single Moms. But, I totally identify with feeling alone. I feel that way most of the time. Friends mean well and want to listen and be supportive but they cannot possibly understand the feeling of having so much responsibility of such precious cargo (kids) all by yourself. So you know who you are, I salute you and I thank you for taking the time to make your thoughts and feelings known to me. For those who read this, thank you for taking the time, and for helping me in this wonderfully challenging path.
Now, let's talk cold turkey. It should come as no surprise to you when I say that I had a particularly challenging session with Ola, therapist extraordinairre, today. She, as she often does challenged me to something today that would require me in my opinion to go "Cold Turkey" and stop something that I have been doing and involved in deeply and emotionally for years now. The challenge is to stop it and do nothing for 3 months. I know that does not sound like a long time but to me at this moment it feels like an eternity. I have not had an addiction per say to alcohol, tobacco or drugs but I am addicted to bad relationships so doing nothing for 3 months with regards to relationships is like quitting smoking cold turkey. I said to Ola,"I will try." How quickly she corrected me saying, "No, you will do it." Then followed a really cute illustration involving a chair and trying to get up. So this got me thinking about the words "I will try." What I meant was that I would do nothing for as long as I could but I wanted to give myself an out with her in particular since it was her challenge if I failed to do nothing for the entire 3 months. I needed an escape hatch. Needless to say, she would not give me one. So I need your help out there in blog world. Remind me occasionally to do nothing. I have now successfully removed the escape hatch myself by sharing this challenge with you. I know you will want to know how the "cold turkey" thing went and I will be sure to tell you good, bad or ugly, the truth.
I have to give one more shout out tonight. This goes to all of my students and to my Noah who did so well on the CRCT. Scores came back today and I have to tell you that proud does not even begin to describe what I am feeling right now. I had one student of mine that earned a perfect score on the Science CRCT and my little Noah, who God love him, struggles in school with his ADHD and his small stature exceeded in both Science and Social Studies and was 2 points away from exceeding in Math. He passed everything with flying colors. I have to also say that all of my Science students especially my Sp. Ed. kids did really well. If I could get away with kissing them all I surely would. I am one proud Mama and Teacher today. I sure hope that my kiddos are proud of themselves.
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