The Sun, the Moon, and Stars

It is unbelievable the difference a day can make.  I know that we have all said that many times but never has it been a truer statement for me than today.  My journey to.......what to even call it.....emotional health or maturity has been slow and painful and painfully slow.  Well, that's my perception, I imagine that Ola would disagree.  "Nothing" and feeling like a "nobody" was the overwhelming feeling that came over me last night.  Anxiety and exhaustion from not sleeping last night was the order of business today but I was at school and I feel somewhat competent there.  I walked in the door tonight to find a package on my cabinet.  Now, Christmas on a single teacher's income did me in, so I knew that I did not order this.  I had no idea what it was or who it was from.  I took it upstairs to my room, closed and locked the door because I really did not know what was in the package, and opened it.  What I saw immediately brought me to tears.  In the box, was a beautiful charm for my Pandora bracelet, the Sun, the Moon, and the Stars and this lovely and delicate flower spacer. 
Now, some of you may roll your eyes, but I bet most of you just let out an "awww".  I have to tell you that it is the sweetest, most romantic, thoughtful thing that anyone has ever done for me.  In that moment, I have never in my life felt more loved in my life and at the same time so unworthy.    I never dreamed that having a dream come true could be so beautiful and so painful all at the same time.  It is proof positive that I still have a long way to go on my journey but if I trust the process and continue on there will be some really gems along the way.
Jeff will want to choke me for writing all of this sappy emotional stuff and is probably turning 15 shades of red reading this and my facebook post but he deserves this recognition.  His path has not been the easiest either.  I can only speak for me but if all of the pain, disappointment, loss, and turmoil is what it took to get me to this moment and to this place with this man then it was all worth it and I would do it all over again.